field notes

plain words for the hard hours.

the urge to text, the empty room, the body that will not settle. no quick fixes.

what limerence is, and why it will not let go

the hoping, scanning, replaying state after someone becomes the center of the day. what it is, and what actually quiets it.

brian martori · august 2026 read →

avoidant attachment after a breakup

going quiet, sudden numbness, relief then grief. the retreat is a body move, not a verdict on whether you cared.

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what love bombing is

flood then freeze. why the intensity felt like love, and where the hurt can go without a courtroom.

brian martori · august 2026 read →

what a situationship is

when it never had a name and still left a hole. you do not have to prove it was real before you get to hurt.

brian martori · august 2026 read →

anxious attachment after a breakup: the reach and the retreat

the anxious reach and the avoidant retreat. why the attachment system reads an ending as an emergency, and what actually quiets it.

brian martori · july 2026 read →

the no contact rule, without the mythology

not a tactic to get them back. the conditions a wound needs to close, why it works in the body, and how to hold it at 2am.

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should you text them. the honest test.

three honest tests for the urge to reach out, and somewhere for the words to go if they do not pass.

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why you keep checking their social media

the check is a slot machine, not a search for information. what each visit costs, and how to step down.

brian martori · july 2026 read →

how long heartbreak lasts. an honest answer.

no fixed timeline exists. what shapes the arc, and how to live inside it without making healing another deadline.

brian martori · july 2026 read →

why you miss someone who hurt you

missing them does not mean they were right for you. why longing can ignore what you know.

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breakup anxiety: why the body will not calm down

racing heart, tight chest, dread from nowhere. breakup anxiety is a body event, not a character flaw.

brian martori · july 2026 read →

when grief closes the throat

heartbreak can shut digestion down. why food feels impossible, and how to tend the body gently.

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getting through the 3am hours

why sleep breaks, and how to get through the hours when the bed feels too empty.

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why a breakup hurts in the body

what heartbreak does in the body and brain, and why the pain does not mean you are weak.

brian martori · july 2026 read →

when the crying will not stop

the difference between crying that moves and crying that loops, and what helps in a spiral.

brian martori · july 2026 read →

sitting with loneliness without reaching

loneliness that is not the urge to text. how to sit with the empty hours without forcing them full.

brian martori · july 2026 read →

when someone hurt you and it will not settle

betrayal, cruelty, and shame about how much it still stings. how to sit with what they did.

brian martori · july 2026 read →

getting through a breakup, realistically

what actually helps, what to do with the grief, and a small structure you can hold without forcing it.

brian martori · july 2026 read →

how to stop texting them when you still miss them

when the urge arrives at 2am and your hands are already reaching for the phone. what to do next.

brian martori · july 2026 read →

when your mind will not let go

You cannot force yourself to stop thinking about your ex, and trying makes it worse. Here is what actually quiets the loop, based on how rumination really works.

brian martori · july 2026 read →

still loving them after it ended

Still loving your ex does not mean you made a mistake leaving, or that you should go back. Here is why love outlasts a relationship, and what to do with it.

brian martori · july 2026 read →

the first night alone

The first night alone after a breakup is the hardest. Here is how to get through it, hour by hour, when the bed is empty and the dark feels like it will not let you up.

brian martori · july 2026 read →

grief at night

grief gets louder when the distractions stop. ways to get through the hardest hours.

brian martori · july 2026 read →

the honest question about rebounds

it depends on one thing: whether the new person is being reached for or hidden behind. how to tell the difference, from either side.

brian martori · july 2026 read →

being alone after a breakup

alone is a skill, not a sentence. why the empty room reads as danger, the difference between alone and lonely, and how to build a life that fits one person.

brian martori · july 2026 read →

when they keep watching your stories

a story view is the cheapest action on the internet. what it usually means, why it hits so hard, and how to keep their attention from taxing your healing.

brian martori · july 2026 read →

getting over someone you work with

the ending happened, the seeing-them-every-day did not. the rules of low contact at work, and how to process it outside the building.

brian martori · july 2026 read →
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